Monday, 16 February 2009

• * story of an ex with a regret

  dedicated to Nicolas:
  I hope that you no longer have regrets and is cherishing every moment in life, and living it to the fullest (no more suicides).
  And of course, never EVER, let love pass you by again.
  
  You'll always have a place in my heart,
  and I'll always thank you for all that you've given and taught me.
  
  xoxo, Junie <3

   

  so one of my friends and their girlfriend broke up yesterday,
  all because of the Valentine's Hallmark holiday.

  now my friend was always the one who made the effort in the relationship,
  and really eventuallly you're going to get tired. been there, done that.
  
  This friend of mine was also the same friend that introduced me to my first boyfriend,
  and now they have the same ending as my ex and I;
  
  the giver gets too tired to give, the getter doesn't plan on giving.

  Now this really reminded me how things have ended,
  and it reminds me how hurt I was knowing that the person
  that I love had just allowed himself to make a decision he would regret for life.

  Not necessarily he would regret breaking up with me,
  but the fact that he didn't give the relationship his all...
  I remember how almost 2 years ago I cried and begged him not to do this,
  how I told him that no matter what I have to do I'll solve our problems some how,

  and he still made that choice to simply get up and leave.

   

  A few months after when I really thought about it,
  those problems we're not 'our's, they were really his own personal problems.
  I took his problems, and treated them as my own,
  no matter how upset I was, I would feel like its the end of the world when he was upset,
  even if its not my fault.

  If you take a step back and think,
  you'd realize that you spoiled them way too much...

   

  But regardless of how things ended,
  and whether this ex of mine regrets or not,
  I still believe in love,
  and I believe that I love my current boyfriend...

  However, I really feel like I need to remind people to not call quits until its the end,
  until you really don't love them anymore,
  until there really is no way out anymore,
  until there really is nothing to say anymore,
  until you got everything sorted out,
  until you've done everything you could possibly do..

   

  Lies told enough times can become the truth.
  If you have something you might regret,
  you can still change it.
  As long as you still love eachother, its NEVER too late.
  

  so that one day..
  
  you won't become a person who would go to sleep
  knowing that theres someone you once knew,
  who loved you dearly, and who you loved dearly,
  somewhere out there, probably sleeping in a bed beside someone else,
  without ever knowing if they are your one true love...

   

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